Coming back from my parents’ funeral in 2008, I stopped at a lovely spot and took this picture. As I looked into the water, it appeared still and yet a gentle flow movement could be detected when I observed 2 small leaves drifting slowly . It reminded of the passage of time, gently flowing into days and then months. Suddenly a year has passed
I kept the picture. On the leaves went emotions of loss and pain as two people I loved very much had gone from this material world and I so miss their presence. It is true what someone said that it is better to have loved than never love at all for fear of pain of loss.
I know that I am a better person for having known and loved them and had I the ability to choose my parents, I would choose them. They were the best choice that God made for me.
At times I wish that I could change the present to a time when my Papa was still here so I could sit by his side and tell him the words he would have liked to hear and that I now possess. But when he was around those words were missing from my vocabulary.
If only I could is the stuff of dreams I told myself. My doctor disagrees. She told me to write them down as in a letter to my father and present it to him and then to burn the letter as if he had finished reading it.
I have tried it to help with mourning my parents and it does work
Additional page to follow:- It is now 2 years since my darling parents have left us. Time has worked its magic.