For a few years now, nothing has been added to this blog.
The knowledge that it was important not to write anything during this period has proved valuable. So much growth has occurred without my awareness of its presence.
What have I learnt or unlearnt? Once upon a time, I beleived that I had acquired a fair amount of wisdom. Parts of what I thought were necessary have been chipped off, one by one and the peace I feel reaffirms within me, that the road to wisdom is simple.
Time has flown without giving me the feeling of being left out. It has been time well spent, simply living, absorbing what life has to offer and being in the present. I can truly say my favourite sentence “life is beautiful” and I mean it.
Recently my godson who I cared about a lot reminded me that the last time I said it was when things were not going so well, but the effect of that simple sentence changed the outcome.
During the same conversation, I mentioned a story. It was a moment of living totally in the present. I went out to the yard, enjoying every step I took on a beautiful lawn; I noticed a small flower and picked it up before it got crushed under my foot. It was a perfect work of art. Stem and petals were only a few millimeters. The centre was dark blue and the petals had 5 perfect dark blue markings on a brilliant orange background, with all the petals being of equal size. This occured when I should have been depressed but the orange flower worked its magic.
The only other story I shall recount, was another time when I was physically missing my mother’s presence after her death. The heaviness in my heart matched the sky covered by menacing clouds. They parted as I walked on to the balcony and this beautiful blue light came down, up the stairs, sped behind me and disappeared on my left. Had I been lost in my pain, I would have missed this peaceful encounter.
There are so many other stories I can recall, but the whole point of this reminisence is to show how often we remember the painful memories and forget to look for the flipside of each instance to allow the healing part to come through.
Yes, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.